Lying on my bed listening to Jarvis, I was feeling a bit down in the dumps this evening. The best plan is always to pick up the phone and call a friend.

I flick through the contacts, starting at A. I don't get very far through the alphabet before I've already spotted the person I'd like to speak to.

So, what exactly is it that stops me from pressing the call button? For someone who is a hell of a lot more confident and self-secure than I used to be, I consider it very strange of me that I decide (after wondering about it for ten minutes) not to call them and to call someone else instead. Someone else who I'm sure won't mind if I ring them.

Stupid thing is, thinking logically the person I was going to ring was hardly going to mind either. If they weren't, they just wouldn't answer - just like I (or anyone else) would do if I'm really not able or in the mood to talk. Besides - who else cares?

It was nice to talk to who I talked to, but I've made myself more miffed at myself for not stopping my search earlier in the contact list. Shame on me!