Another bit if writing I found, dated 6th April 1997 at 9:50pm.

Specific Uncertainty

I've found someone special in my little life
But where am I stood?
I could try and maybe force the issue
But at this, I am not very good

Even though I've been there a few times in the past
It is different each time
As usual I have no doubt how I feel
I just need to connect
I just need to be sure

I like to ride with my feelings and go with the tide
As plans often go wrong
This time this might not be right
I'd rather I was sure before too long

"Ask" is the cry yet I am a little too shy
And there is an important twist
There is friendship, the most important thing of all
And that is not something that I'd like to put at risk

Do I risk or do I not?
Or let someone else call the shots?
Do I smile or do I fail?
I can only hope common sense will prevail

I always look at things from the completely wrong perspective
And this may be true now
I could find disappointment or the opposite quite soon
I just need to know... how